Back Story
It all started with a little trip to Calgary, Canada. My old friends of family just moved there from Hong Kong. I was curious and covid had just ended, so I decided to go on this trip to visit them and their home. The overall trip was okay, but it was very refreshing as I haven’t been to anywhere else for the last 5 years. The most important part was that I was able to reconnect with old friends again.
They are a family of four. There was the father, let’s call him “B“. The mother, “C“. Their son, “H“. And their daughter, “R“. It was good seeing them again. And they made me feel at home. But as my trip was only 2 weeks, I reluctantly had to say goodbye to them shortly after.
When I got home from my trip, I received a text message on SnapChat from R. I was hesitant at first as she only sent me a picture of her front house. I did not know what it meant, but I messaged her anyway. And there is how our year and a half story began.
We talked for hours by text, phone calls and FaceTime. And whenever we had holidays, we would fly out to each other. We would order food deliveries for each other. We would send post cards on Valentine’s Day. I bought loads of gifts and flowers for her throughout the entire relationship. And I even decided to move to Calgary for her after I graduated university. This all sounds like the perfect story to a happy ending, but all of this was just a facade.
Towards the later half of the relationship, things got toxic. We had a lot of insecurities. From my perspective, she lacked self-esteem regarding her looks. She was anxious of me with other women. And for me, I felt like I was always fighting to be with her. I had to move to another country, leaving my old life behind for her. Even though I know it was my decision, I just wish I could get more reassurance from her, like the way I keep reassuring to her that she look perfect to me and I was hers. I guess that’s how my resentment towards her and moving to Calgary began.
What I learnt from my breakup
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